I really stepped back this week and since folks are still finding me and adding comments to my posts and friending me and sending me messages, I figured I should touch base and let folks know what I am thinking at the moment.
I've *really* stepped back in the last week -- for lots of reasons.
One, I needed to step up my attention to responsibilities at home; the everyday responsibilities were being neglected a bit and I needed to rectify that after 2 intense weeks here on-line.
Two, I was starting to feel overwhelmed with this "game" -- the steady influx of new agents who needed the same reminders, and encouragement and connection. I didn't know how to prioritize and I wanted to focus on African Agents but was having difficulty finding them....
Three, I did not feel like I had a meaningful contribution on the power mission -- folks who understood the "hows" of this much better than I were doing a fine job of researching and brainstorming and sharing their thoughts and I did not want to submit posts as "busywork" just to meet the letter but not the spirit of the challenge.
Four, I decided to put some of the energy I had spent here, seeing if I could help the SEED EVOKATION off the ground and did some on-line work and research for that project that is not reflected here.
And, finally, five: and -- i hate to admit -- I was starting to feel a nascent cynicism and criticism about some of it.
All the research I had done [and that others were sharing] kept proving to me that there already are hundreds of fabulous ideas, solutions, projects, incubators at work in the world. I am just not certain starting NEW ones is necessary. I think effort should be galvanized around successful endeavors already in progress. I just can't help thinking that that's a better use of limited resources and energy.
Add to that the burgeoning "politicing" and unpleasantness around gamesmanship and competition... well, I decided to step back a bit.
I haven't quit yet. I am interested to see what the next missions spark. I still would like to make a contribution. I am slowly trying to get through all the messages folks have sent me. I just need to so this all on my terms. And to ensure it stays a meaningful and authentic experience for me with the potential for real world impact on some levels.
Thanks to Jen Schaffer, whose comment to me on what of my posts sparked this...
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